Ok, here we go! To understand where I am coming from I have to let you know that I have been married to a very violent man. All this showed up after our daughter was born. Sickening jealousy and putting me down on a daily basis. So after all this hell including he wanted to kill me and kidnap our daughter from me. It took three years to finally find peace in our life again. In between these years, I also lost my loving mom to Alzheimer’s. I worked hard so me and my wonderful daughter can have a good life. Suddenly my backbones gave up on me. I was not able to work, but I knew there is still the need of money to make our living. By that time it has been 12 years since we left my Ex-Husband . So there I am, very deeply depressed, very lonely and in terrible pain from my back 24/7. It was never till this time that I had in mind to ever let anybody close to me or in my heart. Then I thought, what the hell, I’ll just try a dating site on Facebook.  I was thinking hey, I have nothing to lose, so I wrote some nice sentences about me and included my picture. It didn’t take long and I had my first answer, then more and more. They were all sweeter than honey. OMG, it felt so great to get these compliments on my still bleeding heart. So, I waited a week, and then I answered them. WOW, my first time ever doing this! The response was quick and again very nice. I decided to pick this US Army Soldier Michael Smith. He was awsome looking, like I imagine a man to be. Not skinny, a few muscles, seven day beard with wonderful green eyes to his dark brown hair. I was 44 and he was 46, so perfect for me. He also had a daughter and lost his wife five years ago to cancer. His Facebook profile showed him with his buddies from the States playing football and his buddies in the Army hanging out. So, I told him I would like to give him a chance.  It took two days and he sent me good morning greetings, and also at night I got good night wishes. He told me he is in Nigeria on a Blue Helmed Mission . The US Army trained the Nigerians how to fight and shoot . He told me not to wonder if he is not writing to me because he goes on Patrol shifts and he also is responsible as a E6 for his men. Ok no Problem for me. I told my daughter about who I met and that he seems very nice. As soon as she heard Nigeria, she said, “mom that man is a scammer.  They ask you for money.” I answered, “Well, for now, he is nice, and I don’t believe so!”  We got more into it over text. Of course I wanted to prove my daughter wrong and googled all about the UNO blue Helmed Soldiers and the US Army and if they are in the Region. Well growing up as a US Army child I knew that the Army is all over and in a lot of places and Countries nobody knows . So what I found online proved Michaels story and I was ok with that. My daughter did everything to show me he is not real, even picture search. Sadly, with no results. Nothing was found about him. So, I kept on writing with him. Talks got longer, and I told him that I believe he is a scammer. Deeply shocked he responded like I just cut his heart in two. No way in the world would he do such a thing with all sweet talking . I told him I have a bunch of questions to ask him so I can get to know him better. “Sure, no problem he says.”  I said, “Ok, but no breaks in between shoot the answers straight out.” “Ok” he said. I asked him everything from head to toe. After a bit he cracked up and asked me if I had a list ….hahaha . After mine, he asked me also many questions based on mine. So now we talked every night plus the good morning and good night wishes. I felt great! I couldn’t wait till the morning to see his mail. Nervous, I waited in the evening hours for his messages. Around 11 pm we always stopped because he said his commander wants everybody in bed by then and the signal goes out around camp. It was over weeks that we got to know each other. Really intensive talks about likes and dislikes in life. What we both want from life and not ever want again. He was very respectful and wrote perfect English, which I thought was proof again for him being a real American. By the 1st of July we had been talking on a daily basis so much and often. He then asked if I can do him a favor. He asked me for 50 Euro. Reason was his daughter’s Birthday and he cannot get to the bank into the next bigger City cause it was too dangerous for the GI´s going there at that moment of time. Of course he would pay me back asap. My world broke down. Damn my daughter was right, damn, damn, damn, why me ?????? All I wanted was to be loved! Everything was soooo great, why is this happening now ????? He reacted very hurt on me accusing him again to be a scammer. He told me not to worry he’ll never ask for help again. I felt sooo bad, but still knowing the shit he tried is not right, so I broke contact to him. On the 4th I went to a big 4th of July German American Festival.  I still have him on my mind and am feeling sad. So by 11 pm the fireworks started, and I couldn’t hold it no more, I wrote him! I only said, “Hi” and he responded in the same minute “Hi.” He asked me why I am doing this to him, hurting him so much. I would be the first woman in all the years that caught his heart like I did. He is about to fall in love with me and spend forever with me…W O W…that went straight into my heart! I felt sooooo happy for the first time in all the years. We had so much in common. I felt like I finally found my soulmate! And there I am not helping him out in a need situation and he is talking about being mine forever!  So, two days later I send him 25 Euro because that was all I had. He thanked me a million times and we went back to daily talking. Now then a woman wrote me asking who I was. Ok, he had all kinds of American friend names in his list plus females, but I didn’t think anything of it. Until this day! I had posted on one of his pictures “He is mine now.” Well, I answered her who I am, and she starts telling me “no, no, no lady he is my man.” I thought to my self OMF…… God what kind of BS is this now? She would not stop telling me about her and his plans of raising her grandchild as theirs, and opening a place in her hometown. Hmmm, my blood started to flow really fast thru my veins, and I contacted him and it was NOT nice. How I felt, I wrote, and immediately he got back to me telling me not to believe her. He had told her there would be no future between them two and she can’t handle this. She wants to destroy us, and so on, and so on, and so on. I was out of my control! I didn’t know who to believe. In the end, he told me to decide of my own, but he does not wanna lose me. I took my time and thought about it. In between then that woman sent me millions of messages, and so did he. She was so absolutely not looking like me. She was way over 50 and had like eight kids, plus taking her girls baby. I decided to play, and I told him to write her so she’ll leave us alone. On the other hand, I told her I was taking a break from him. Well, a few days later she sent me a message with what he had sent her. It was what he had promised me. She was absolutely heartbroken, and not understanding what was going on. I did feel sorry for her. I hate seeing people hurt, but in this one, I told myself, I am first. He acted all happy and relieved having me now for good. But, I told him one more shit like this I’ll be gone for good! He knew the story of my past, and I didn’t want a makeover. So now we planned on spending his Leave together. He didn’t wanna spend it all in the states because he couldn’t wait for meeting me finally. I asked him about his daughter, and he said everything is already planned with her caretaker. Ok, how much is a flight? I asked. He said 1300 Euro. He said “I have a secret to tell you. They were out on patrol checking old, burned or left houses. In there they found a big box with pure gold plus a lot of money. They split in between them three and each had to hide theirs themselves. “He already had a plan on how he could get it out of the Country. There would come a man of the church going on his way home (USA) and has a flight stop in Frankfurt in Germany. He would give him the box and then this man will send it by UPS to my house. I said, ok no problem as long as I don’t get into any shit.  Now this man needed money cause he would have to spend the night by the airport waiting for his next flight going to the US. So Michael asked me for 500 Euros for a hotel and food. I had just gotten my monthly pay, so I decided to put the rent on hold and send the man that money cause Michael had told me as soon as I get the package I could open it and take the money for my rent right out. Well the package never got to me. I had talked to this supposed to be man of the church. I had seen pics of a box and a piece of paper saying it will be send to me. That was try Number 1.  All together he tricked me with different tries four times . Each always around 500 to 1300 Euros. At the end the gold got taken away by a stranger. In between all the loving talking he also called me . So now I heard his voice and his heavy accent. No American slang. But right then I only wanted him! The man that loves me so much and would die for me!!!!!! Five times I paid for plane tickets, but of course he never came here. Excuses: He got robbed on the way to the airport in a HUMVEE with three other GI´s to bring him there safe. The other time somebody had put drugs in his duffle bag so he had to go to prison and needed 1500 Euros. Then again another time they denied his visa. One time he was supposed to be helped by his commander that took 1600 Euros. And the other time, I sent 800 Euro already but he needed more, but I was financially dead! So, he kept telling me he sees no future in us no more , being very moody, not wanting to chat or talk. But, if I stopped, he came back on. I thought I was in an absolutely wrong movie.  All the little amounts in between 100, 50, 140, 200, etc. tallied over 10.000 Euro. Plus my Landlord tried to kick us out cause I didn’t pay rent. Also, I almost lost my car. I couldn’t pay my monthly rates no more. He had told me again and again to sell it, BUT I said NO. Thanks God!

So now we came to the point to where we both knew we’d never meet unless in the USA. We fought a lot cause I could not understand what he was telling me, and in the same way knowing the Army works different. Just like with these hop flights for every Army Personal easy to jump into.  So no more love talking. No more Feelings over the telephone, just the normal daily basics. That was in November. The year ended like this. In January we spoke over the phone, and suddenly he said he needs to tell me something that he can not hold to himself no more. I thought oh shit, he found another woman. NO! BUT, he told me who he really is and sent me pictures of him. Telling me his real age (24 now 25) and how his feelings really are real. BOOM! Shoot me in the head!  WHAT ?????  I honestly got fooled ??? My Daughter was right all the time???? I ruined us financially for whoooo?????????? NO soulmate, but a damn scammer! We talked for hours. I cried. He explained himself or tried to. I told him I need a break before I say anything. I had no air to breathe! Later that night he texted me to see if I was ok and how deeply sorry he feels. Early morning he called me and I let my soul speak and said that I am very hurt, very mad, but still don’t wanna lose contact to him . Happily, he admitted he feels the same. By this time, my dad got diagnosed with Alzheimers like my mom. It started another very very hard and sad time. Michael now Solomon helped me with talking to me every time possible. I could call him 24/7 and he would just listen or try to give me Gods strength that I needed so bad !!!!!! In between all this time the feelings came back. As my dad died we talked for hours daily and it really felt good. Whoever he is he was there and it helped me not doing something stupid. !!!!!!!!!!!!! I liked who he was. Young but very smart and intelligent! Nosy to see the world, but also standing for his Country. I never cared for Africa or even heard about living there. So he kinda opened my eyes how hard it is to live there and trying to survive. He told me why and how he got into this scammer business……. His big Dream is to be a photographer with his own studio. He wants to stay in his country and not go to Europe or the States. So we talked again pretty regular but not daily. No more asking for money cause I always told him that I have none and in return, he didn’t want me to send any anymore. One day he asked me to do him a big favor . He has somebody sending money to him from the USA, but they cannot send it straight because Western Union wouldn’t send to Nigeria no more. Everything was great between us. We had a funny, all relaxed friendship with loving feelings I thought. So, no problem for me doing him a favor.  I went to pick up the money and send it to him . This is how I knew he is still scamming. This sending to him took unusually long. 20 hours before he could pick it up . In this time he jumped my shit. He lost total control. Blaming mefor stealing his money and so on… pure hell…thru the whole night calls, messages, and then finally he got it. Then I jumped his shit and told him off. I let all my anger go, and he commented it all with how he fooled me again. He never wanted a friendship, he could care less if I am dead or alive and I should grow up and understand ………. WHAT ??????? WTF ?????????? Ok, I said a few more things that just needed to be said and after that SILENCE! He is blocked on Facebook! He tried it over Instagram saying how over the hill he went, and that he is so sorry. He asked if we could at least stay Facebook friends………. HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA